Laiskiainen

There's been a long time I haven't submitted anything new here, there are reasons for that. Time has passed but things haven't really changed for me. I'm still in some kind of an accomplishing mode, keeping busy. I've been working now from the middle of January. Got some money to spend, decided to buy a digital SLR again! I've been shooting for the past two years with an analog full frame Canon T90 and I still love it! Anyway now's the time to get my digital SLR back when I had to sell it back in 2009 to get my car fixed!

I was very intrested in Pentax because they've had the same K-mount all the way from the 70s! Plus that they have image stabilizer (shake reduction - SR) in the camera body. That allows me to use old but mint (real bargain) lenses from ebay straight in my Pentax and even with SR whatever lens I'm using! I think it's a huge advantage compared to Canon's non IS camera bodies and the expensive EF-mount lenses!

So I ended up buying a Pentax K20D even though it's a bit old model already but I think it's still very competitive! Sure it has its weaknesses, bad AF in low light and not that smooth on high ISO compared to current DSLRs but those aren't a big loss for me. I've been focusing manually the last two years so I can surely manage to focus manually when AF doesn't work and high ISO will be defeated with a Sigma 50mm f/1.4 soon!

I'll be posting few photos I took in late October after my dad had passed away. We were taking a break from life, a breathe at our summerhouse, me, mum and our dog Anna.

Hope to get something happier to write soon!
-Jussi

Just wanted to tell you that I'm having a very hard time at the moment. My dad had surgeries last year because of melanoma cancer and everything went very well. In this June dad was in full body scan and no metastasis were found and everything should have been ok.

Then in August he had some terrible back pain but were turned back home from hospital as it would have been sciatica. After a week it got so bad that he couldn't take it anymore and when he got scanned they found a melanoma metastasis in his back. After a while they found out that he had melanoma growth also in his liver. So the cancer had gone into the circulation of blood and the doctor said that there's nothing they can do. This was the 27th September. So the only thing we could do was to take care of the pain. That was the hardest thing to accept.

Thanks to my mum, dad got the best place to spend the rest of time, in a wonderful palliative care place where he had his own spacious little appartment and where we had the chance to live with him (me and mum & our dog). We had our own air beds there and we were near dad all the way as his support, the last two weeks he had. It was very tough but at the same time the only and right way we could think of. Actually my dad was the strong and supportive one. He handled a lot of practical stuff like life insurance contracts by phone from his deathbed etc. for his family, so that we could continue our life and that dad wouldn't have any concerns about that. I guess it helped him also.

Dad passed away on Wednesday 6th October.

At the moment I'm just trying to keep myself busy to get my thoughts somewhere else. Actually I don't have to try because the practical stuff like funeral is keeping us busy and other mortgage and bank stuff etc. At the same time I'm very concerned about my mother how she gets along as I'm trying to handle my army stuff. Thank god I got the last two weeks off. But now I should return again.. Luckily mum has a lot of great friends who'll support her and take her out to get some fresh air and other thoughts in her mind. I got my own supporting friends too, no worries and of course we support each other and that's most important.

I guess it's memories that will carry us forward in life. It has to be.

- Jussi

Now the time has come and I have to give up my freedom for a while. It's been a lovely summer this far and now it'll end way too early for me. I'm off to the army so I won't be around in a while.

Have fun, make lots of photos and take care!

- Jussi

Just sold my Canon 40D + all the lenses to get my car fixed. I'm feeling sad for losing the possibility to do digital photographing but at the same time I'm happy when I'm getting my car fixed.

Anyway I was a lot more interested in analog photographing the last six months and lots of my previous works have been made with the Canon T90. That's why I'm also looking forward using only the analog stuff and getting some more old stock lenses from eBay.

Now I'm a full time analog photographer with my

Canon T90 with:
Canon 50mm f/1.4
Vivitar 135mm f/2.8
Tokina 28-70mm f/3.5
Tokina 80-200mm f/4

Next I'm hopefully going to get a Canon 17mm f/4 and get some funny wide angle photo material and of course beautiful landscape pics!